[Janurary 28, 2010] my journal

It's deep dawn. I smoked one of cigarrets.
I'm so sad because the time is going too fast and it's almost the last part of January..
What was I doing? Since I came back to my home town, I've wasted a lot of time to rest.
My two main subjects, programming and studying English, have been blocked.

Maybe, it's my life style to regret something always..
Our time is limited, but my resolutions and my works appear every time.
That would be why I become always sad.

I'm afraid of my future..
Something talks to me it's going to be fine, but sometimes it's going to be just my imaginations..
Here in my country, going abroad other countries to work is not simple.
Sometimes, I agreed what I should work in Korea. Maybe.. Many times I did..
To go to the United State for working? It's really one of the ridingculas imaginations..


Although I have these ideas, I still dream..
It's about future, girl's issues, my honourable states or money.
On my hands, there is nothing to have.
I don't have these things, but I still dream.
Because I don't have anything, I still dream.
It would be the reason why I'm here, why I study and why I try...





- ps.
This blog is for my English abilities, and I'm not good at communicating in English. If you see grammatic, syntax or logical errors, or if you can't understand clearly, PLEASE COMMENT ON IT. Your comments definitely help me, and I really appreciate this. :)

- Written by Gordon

[January 23, 2010] a font for programming

 

 

 Few days ago, when I studied MFC programming throught a web lecture, the teacher recommented to use the font of 'Consolas' which was developed by Microsoft for developers. Also, it's optimized for Microsoft Visual Studio 2005 & 2008 so that Simply I changed one option.

 

Here is the capture of Consolas font on Visual Studio 2008.

 

 

 

This is the capture of alphabet using Consolas.

 

 

 

You can download on the web site of MS page.

Here is a link:

http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?familyid=22e69ae4-7e40-4807-8a86-b3d36fab68d3&displaylang=en

 

 

Enjoy coding :)

 

 

 

 

- ps.
This blog is for my English abilities, and I'm not good at communicating in English. If you see grammatic, syntax or logical errors, or if you can't understand clearly, PLEASE COMMENT ON IT. Your comments definitely help me, and I really appreciate this. :)

 

- Written by Gordon

 

 

[News] Web 2.0 Suicide Machine

 

 

From NPR.

Here is the Link:

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=122379695

 

 

 

- Vocabraries (that were new to me):

 

 

fritter: make something into frit

fritter away: to waste time.

 

coax: persuade gently, gently make something work

 

euthanasia: painless killing to relieve suffering

 

violate: disregard something, disturb something

 

investigate: carry out official inquiry, take look

 

 

 

 

- My opinion:

That's why I don't use or visit in social-networking web sites. I highly recomment it.

 

 

 

 

 

[09-12-29] my journel

Sometimes, I miss the time when I was being in love. It's taken already 2 years. No, 3 years? I don't remember exactly.. (Also, I don't want to remember this.)

Some of my friends asked me that when I'm going to meet someone. At every moment when I heard it, I just thought and asked myself why should I try to meet somebody, why should I give my efforts to meet a girl. Maybe after my heart was broken, I promissed to her that I never meet a new girl frined, and I'll wait for her. It was also my resolution for myself.. Time was going fast and fast from that event.

First, it was too hard for me. I didn't accept her words.(maybe because I had believed her too much.) I had never thought like to say goodbye or to be said goodbye. I was panic. everything was nothing to me. Even the light raising for me made me mad and angry.. But I had believed that it'll be just a moment and she will turn back to me again because I thouht I liked her much.

Now, I'm thinking of what I want. If she came to me again, was I happy? And were we going to be fine? I'm not sure.. It could possibly be fine or not. Anyway, I feel my heart seems to be forgotten about her a little. Sadly, It will probably take a lot of time to be forgotten perfectly.

I'm certain about my grades and efforts for my major, but I don't know about my girl's issues, damn it..

December 4, 2009: The first journal

 

 

Now, I've finally opened my blog at TextCube.

In this section, I'm going to talk about just my stories, diaries, or kiddings..

So, it's going to be my opened privacy.

 

 

 

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Today, I felt like everything is overlapped. I don't know why, but it occurs to me in my room.

Maybe, it is able to relate with my girl issues or a fear of the future.

 

Everything convolved round and round. I still stood at the same spot.

Nothing changes..

I feel angry now..

 

 

- Gordon